I constantly find myself sitting in my room, or at work, or in my car thinking about life. I can’t seem to help myself. I constantly reflect on where I am now compared to where I was like a year ago, or maybe five years ago, and so on. Lately I’ve been thinking about college, I know I want to go back. I know I need to go back. I need to do it for me. I’ve been trying to save up the money to pay back the last term where my whole university account was messed up. No, it wasn’t that I didn’t pay them. I had a grant, but apparently they messed up if i was married or not, so they denied my grant since they thought I was married and when they went to correct it I had already finished my term and now I owe them for the whole term. The payment is close to $1800.00. Which doesn’t sound like a lot. In all honestly if I ignored my other debt and just focused on it, I probably could have paid it off faster but I would have been in more trouble in other areas. Either way, here I am, close to paying off one thing, and only a couple hundred off of being able to enroll in school again. It’s strange to think of going back after such a long break, I’m actually kind of scared. There’s a part of me that also wants to do a certification for grant writing, but I’m not too sure if I should go for it or not. Unfortunately with me there’s a lot of doubt, a lot of wondering, a lot of being unsure about pretty much everything. I feel like I jump into things before I’m ready but if I wait too long I usually just drop them. I don’t feel like there is a middle ground with me. Normally I find myself letting opportunities pass me by, but if I jump headfirst into something I feel overwhelmed and normally end up failing. I need a chance I think, I need one to actually do something worthwhile. No more customer service, no more technical support. I need to write. I just need one little lead and I’m grab it and run. Feel free to comment advice below if you have any ❤
Shadow dragon that was suppose to be part of Rena’s shard deal. He was suppose to be the one obsessed with protecting her. Also useless since the shards aren’t part of her story anymore.
Death angel, yes I know, this isn’t a race, this is why she doesn’t exist anymore.
White tiger neko dancer. Sweet girl, orphan, was taken in by a dance instructor/ninja, danced by day ninja by night. She was alot of fun, just couldn’t find a place for her, sadly.
Ninja neko, yes i know, common for me. She was a walkin type character I threw together. She didn’t have any backstory or anything so I got bored.
An attempt at making a new Asura without all the baggage, it didn’t work.
Vampire male character that I made for my friend. He was a badass, but he didn’t really have a purpose other than being good looking and kicking ass.
Asura’s son, somehow a phoenix, no I dont know. He’s also a green phoenix, no, I dont know, and this is why he’s dead.
Demigod daughter of Aries. She punches things, alot. She’s pretty too. But unfortunately there’s no place for her.
Living weapon girl, unfortunately will only work if someone wants to weild her, so that kinda killed itself.
Mute ice wolf character. Sad story, cute character, emotion heavy powers.
First attempt at rena, some weird race I dont remember. Ice mage originally, replaced with Rena.
Super wizard girl! Carried around a grimoire and every time she learned something new it would add itself, so she just got really really strong as time went on, didn’t really know how to balance her, realized it was too much, scrapped her.
Japanese priestess, way too busty, likes to smack people with her staff, no real purpose.
There’s probably more, but this is all I have.
This will be a bunch of random character I’ve had over the years that have “died” in one way or another. By died they could have died in a story, they could have died because I realized their character wouldn’t make it on gaia, maybe the character seemed useless, or maybe someone ruined it for me. So this will be the list of characters, what they were, who they were and how they died.
This was my first ever created character. I wanted a character that was an angel since I was so confused and innocent about life. That and for some reason my high school friends thought I was one. So I made this character. At this point she’s dead to me due to all the roleplays she was in. My friend and I did a lot of roleplaying with her and well, somehow or another she’s no longer what I wanted her to be. Not to mention she had a kid that’s a phoenix, cause apparently angel + dragon shifter thing = phoenix? I don’t even know.
This character didn’t really have a chance. I was trying to make a Rena without the Rikka side. I quickly found out that this didn’t work with me and felt empty, thus the character died off fairly quick.
Demon girl with bladed fans as her weapon that used fire as her element. I used her in one roleplay in which the other person decided they were going to “flood the world” and apparently my fans were op. Needless to say, that was dumb, so I didn’t bother.
This is a bit of a doozy. I made her as a blood angel. I know, this isn’t a race, it was made for a specific plot, for simplicity state thing of the Greek Titans, that was what she was suppose to be. Along the story she was apart of she was bitten by a vampire and had her wings torn off. I wasn’t really expecting this, nor was I expecting that she was shifted into a vampire at this point. Her entire character was based around being the race. I thought of rolling her back to retain her character but I just couldn’t seem to do it.
This was suppose to be a modified version of my eve. This was going to be my way of changing how her character worked to become more magicky and less necromancy, but it didn’t feel right, so no more Evelynn.
Fire Fey character. I wrote the profile, that was about as far as that went.
This was a fun character. 14 year old superhero girl.Her power was to be able to bring to life anything she drew. Hilarity ensued but the application was unfortunately useless for most rps.
Fallen angel in modern times, made a profile, went nowhere.
Regular human priestess, quiet but stern, made a profile, went nowhere.
Neko gunslinger character. Good in theory, horrible in gaia rps because apparently all guns have unlimited ammo
Fallen Angel demon slayer. I made her, I had fun with her, but then my old friends got obsessed with her, so I dropped her.
First male character, a dragon. I made him for Rena’s story, but unfortunately he didn’t find a place and was scrapped rather quickly.
Shadow piece of Rena back when rena’s soul was shattered into shards. Was suppose to be a smart ass demon that wanted to be rena’s lover. The shards aren’t part of her story anymore thus he doesn’t need to be there.
For years I’ve been roleplaying on various sites. I started back on the forums of the old beyblade website [sad I know], found the old roleplaying haven forums on roleplayhaven and stayed there for a while as well, made my journey over to neopets where I met furries for the first time, then eventually found my way over to go-gaiaonline, now known as gaiaonline.com. Throughout the years of roleplaying I’ve evolved as a roleplayer. I found ways to not copy characters I had seen, not use the meta in magic/abilities and soon enough create my own stories instead of constantly walking into random walkins. I’ve eveolved from a ** roleplayer to a literate roleplayer. Through all of my time on these sites, I’ve come to the conclusion that good roleplayers are dieing out.
Back on my early days of beyblade and roleplayhaven, people cared about story over their own character. They wanted to see what people could create, and they wanted to be part of it. People made flexible characters and tried to create their stories inside of the new world they were apart of. There was no “my character is better” fighting, because everyone was working towards the overall goal of the story.
Over the last two years I found it extremely hard to keep a story going, whether it’s mine or someone elses, but only when there are over 4 people in the forum. If it’s a small thread between me and my friends, its fine. In a larger forum with multiple people in continously turns into a shitshow of whose character is more OP. If they think you’re writing is better, you’re OP. You’r power is cooler than mine, OP. You know more than my character does, OP. please notice I never said they did any of these things, it’s more of this is how people perceive it. My main character in roleplaying is normally Rena. In most forums I will play her as water mage that can turn into a demon. Apparently water is op sometimes. My muse played a human samurai, no magic, no abilities, but he knew how katana’s worked, typed as such, nope he’s godmodding. My friend played as a character that was pretty much harmless, but since he was an anthro he’s also godmodding. I wish I could say it was one time, I wish I could say it was a string of bad luck, or even if it was my fault. I’ve made new characters, I’ve played just humans, I’ve made new stories that were so plain there was no way ANYONE could be op, and still, the dick size contest began and destroyed the roleplay.
So my sad conclusion is that the ways of roleplaying where everyone wanted to work towards a story is dead, people use roleplaying as another way to boost their ego or get more attention. This is also easy to see with how few people actually read. People don’t care about stories, they don’t want to read, they want explosions, nudity and violence. The age of roleplaying is dead.
Normally I’m not one to review apps, but this one has all but saved my life. So I recently switched to android and I was annoyed that all the alarm sounds are so damn quiet, and honestly I sleep like a dead girl. I found this app while trying to find an alarm app. I looked through the comments saw the words “Solve a math problem” and got curious. So this works like any other alarm, set it to the time you want and it works perfectly. The difference? How you turn off the alarm. Say goodbye to hitting snooze until you’re late. It won’t let you [well you could keep it on normal setting], but there are many ways to turn off the alarm. You can take a picture, scan a bar code, shake it, or solve a math problem. Now I know the math thing sounds pretty dumb but it will not stop ringing until you solve a set amount. You can set the difficulty ranging from simple 10+12 math to much more difficult math such as 1012×4721+356-10. Not only that, you can set it to be one problem you complete up to 6 you have to complete. It will not, unless the phone dies, stop going off unless you do them. For someone like me, who is terrible at math and also smacks the snooze button while half awake, this is great. Annoying as heck, but it wakes me up, so it’s amazing. So if you have issues trying to wake up in the morning, this is for you!
So I’ve had this concept for a long time but never really knew if I should try it or not. So, I suppose we’ll give this a bit of a try and see what happens from here. If it looks popular enough I’ll keep it as a new serious.
So this story will be a bit of a flashback for myself, the game of topic will be Ragnorak 2.
A couple years ago I felt that I was being outed by my current boyfriend. Him and all his friends just always were doing things 24/7, and every time I asked to join, well, they had some excuse. Finally I managed to get them to let me join them. At the time, my gaming experience was nintendo 64, gameboys and gamecubes, not much else. They had told me they would let me join them in Ragnarok 2. Me, wanting to not be alone, quickly agreed and downloaded the game. Finally after many hours of downloaded, I got the the character screen. Before me was something I didn’t think of, mostly because of my lack of knowledge, classes. So, on a call with all of his friends I finally asked. “What class do you guys want me to play?”
This was a mistake, they were all assholes and I should have known that. For the next three hours I got to hear how “amazing” they were at their roles. Oh I’m the most amazign wizard that has ever existed, oh you wouldn’t believe how great I am at beastmaster, you’ll find yourself worshipping the healing of my priest. Yes, you know what that means, they didn’t have a tank.
Thrown into the world of mmo’s, into a game I didn’t quite understand, into a role I had no idea of, but alas, I didn’t know so I agreed. Quickly I found myself confused as to what was happening, how things worked, what I was suppose to do, but I did quickly notice a pattern. I needed to run in first. Okay, that should be easy enough. So for some levels things went seemingly find. I’d charge into combat, quickly pull everything I could, pop some cooldowns so I took less damage and stood there until they killed things. For a while it went well, it didn’t seem to have a problem. Soon enough we got around level 20-30 I can’t remember which, but we got to this area before a dungeon, there was this giant bug. They had told me it was “super easy” and there was nothing to worry about. So as per normal, I charged in, popped my cooldowns and stood there. Except this time, as they nuked it, nothing happened. The bugs hp bar didn’t move even a little. My cooldowns were running low and so was my health. Wait, we had a healer, it was my boyfriend.
“Um, I need healing?” I was confused, why was I dieing, why wasn’t it dieng. Not once did I see a heal, and then soon enough I died, meaning we wiped. Of course, we picked ourselves up, they told me I needed to cooldown manage better. Oh okay, it was definitely me then, they would know, right?
I charged in, popped one cooldown, stood there, attacked a bit, watched as they nuked but nothing happened. It was like a slow motion of the time before, except this time I tried again. “Can I get a heal?”
“Huh?” I could hear my boyfriend ask.
“You’re a healer aren’t you, can I have a heal?” I asked again as my hp was getting low
“Just pop another cooldown we almost got it.” he answered
Soon enough I died, the bug was still sitting at over 70% of it’s health and we wiped again. Remember, this isn’t a boss, this is some big bug not even 20 feet from the dungeon entrance.
For the next couple hours I heard how I was dragging them down because I clearly wasn’t tanking well enough. Of course, I had enough, and I told them to do it themselves. So we all gathered, I stood back, they started their “nuking’ and they swiftly died even faster than before. Instead of realizing that I just needed some healing and clearly it would be fine, I was told that because I went tank we could do nothing and that I’m just a waste of time.
So, obviously I didn’t play that game again, but don’t worry, this story has a resolution. A couple years later, I mentioned this story to my muse. He was amused and saddened by how this went down, so what did we do, we downloaded Ragnarok 2. We ran through the quests at lightning speed, I don’t even remember what I was playing, but it didn’t matter. Finally we found the bug. The bug that made me almost not play mmo’s ever again. I warned him and my other friends about my countless struggles. We charged in, they nuked and it died instantly. 5 seconds had passed since the pull and the bug simply died. I was so shocked I literally burst into an uncontrollable fit of laughter. All those years ago, I wasn’t a bad tank, it wasn’t even that I needed healing really, it was that their dps was so bad, that there was nothing we could do at the time.
So there you have it, your first MMO horror story from me, I have plenty more, but I figured I would start at the very beginning and see how it fares. I hope you all enjoyed it!
Hello all! For a while now I’ve been playing some modded terraria and figured I would go ahead and share some of my mods and state what I like about them. So first off all these mods will be through Tmodloader, because that’s what my muse and I decided to use. The biggest issues with using new mods or finding mods is if they’re compatible together. All the ones I will be listing will be the ones that I use, so yes, they’re compatible.
So firstly, here’s the list:
-Experience and Classes
-Fargo’s Mutant Mod
-Prefixes for Enemies
Now I’ll explain a bit of what each do and why we have them.
Adds SO MUCH. So many bosses, so many weapons, more enemies, so much armor, pretty much everything. It’s just nice to see so much extra stuff. Also adds a tremode for when you hit hard mode, to make it harder.
Added a couple new class types like the alchemist and a healer. There are more mobs types, I believe a new biome, definitely new bosses. Lots of weapons and armor It’s also a nice add on.
Experience and Classes
My muse and I always love mmos and rpgs that let us pick out classes, so seeing a mod that let us do so was just too perfect. You go from novice to what first spec you and, and then you have to options. So for instance: Novice to Squire can become Warrior or Tank. You get EXP and buffs based on your class.
Do you like looking good? Do you like glamour armor, wings, and even housing items that do nothing other than look cool? This mod is for you! There are a couple weapons, but they’re mostly just for good looks.
Fargo’s Mutant Mod
I’m not aware of the entire contents of this mod, but there is an NPC it gives you that’s the Mutant. The mutant allows you to summon bosses or events you’ve already had. Got annoyed with having to make a slime crown when all you want to do is kill Slime king one more time? Never fear, you fought him once, go buy it from the Mutant!
In the case of having many many mods, this is a must. This will put ALL the bosses on one nice and easy check list so you can see what you have and haven’t killed, and yes it does check them off when you kill them. Some mods aren’t completely compatible so they won’t always check off, but most do.
So, I know this can be used to pull any item in the game out, but my muse and I use it because it has the recipe browser. Since we have so many mods, our poor Guide can’t seem to figure out what some of these items are for. So we use the recipe browser portion to see what we can make. There is also the actual cheat menu, we only use that to trade Crim items for Corrupt items depending on the world we’re in.
New mobs, new weapons and armor. Some of it is hard to find though.
New mobs, new weapons, possibly new armor, can’t find too much info, but it’s there for me. Lol
Oh. My. God. OP bosses, OP weapons, OP armor. OP events, much more stuff than you wanted after moonlord, and it all hurts.
Adds more alchemy things, also bugs and spam spawns sometimes
Prefixes for Enemies
Now this is a love and hate relationship. This can cause your enemies to explode when you kill them, become an OP lightning god that shoots lightning [even slimes!], become gigantic, even super small or split into multiple copies when you kill them. The prefixes are endless. There are two big problems with this. Firstly, this can happen to bosses. So you just killed eye of cthulu? Guess what, here’s three more. Secondly, it doesn’t work too well in multiplayer. It gives prefixes for each person, meaning there’s different ones for different peoples meaning when you’re fighting them with a couple people on the server they may have like 4 prefixes. This will cause immense server lag, but it’s fun though.
New weapons, new mods, new armor, new biome, new boss. Not as big as the other one I have but still a nice addition.
Hate when you die in your house and there are gravestones covering everything you tried to make pretty? Well worry not! Gravestone killer makes it so your gravestones don’t spawn anymore! No more pesky gravestones on your nice new wooden floors
This causes a couple things. One, it fixes some of the drop tables, to make it less grinding to get certain things. It helps getting late items easier [chloryphte accelerator], also gives you access to war potions, which is double the battle potion.
Pretty lazy honestly, but it makes it so you can hold down your mouse button instead of clicking over and over again.