All the hurricane clean up is now done! My house survived for the most part, just had to clean up multiple trees and random scrap metal in the yard. Power was out for a little over a week so I wasn’t able to update this properly. I should be getting back on schedule soon though!
Quite a long time since my last update but with the oncoming hurricane, that hits me tomorrow [QQ] and with my life changing a bit it’s been hard to post updates. I did manage to do some art, however it breaks some of the ToS on this. I tried my hand at some Hentai art ^^;;. Anywhom, after things clear up I’ll write lots! ❤ Stay safe all
I hope you’ve enjoyed the content over the last couple weeks. I finally got the massive back log out to you all. I know I still have a bit more to do. I have another anime review to do. Laughing under the clouds. Great anime, for those wondering. I’ll start having some more Rena content coming out soon, there are some more edits that are done but need to have their side by side available for your viewing pleasure. Unfortunately due to small communication issues with the wordpress support my MMO horror story segment didn’t have much of a chance due to restrictions on the home page. I’ll do another MMO horror story here shortly and see how it does. If it does well, we’ll continue the segment. There should be a good amount of male and female edit pictures here soon. Male would be a new character from my muse, and the female will be Rena. Other than that, I will be doing a pixel art compilation due to some new hobbies I’ve had. So expect to see that. Lastly there will be some art commissions coming up, i have three pending I’ve just been trying to find the time. Things are on the horizon! As usual thank you all for being here ❤
I constantly find myself sitting in my room, or at work, or in my car thinking about life. I can’t seem to help myself. I constantly reflect on where I am now compared to where I was like a year ago, or maybe five years ago, and so on. Lately I’ve been thinking about college, I know I want to go back. I know I need to go back. I need to do it for me. I’ve been trying to save up the money to pay back the last term where my whole university account was messed up. No, it wasn’t that I didn’t pay them. I had a grant, but apparently they messed up if i was married or not, so they denied my grant since they thought I was married and when they went to correct it I had already finished my term and now I owe them for the whole term. The payment is close to $1800.00. Which doesn’t sound like a lot. In all honestly if I ignored my other debt and just focused on it, I probably could have paid it off faster but I would have been in more trouble in other areas. Either way, here I am, close to paying off one thing, and only a couple hundred off of being able to enroll in school again. It’s strange to think of going back after such a long break, I’m actually kind of scared. There’s a part of me that also wants to do a certification for grant writing, but I’m not too sure if I should go for it or not. Unfortunately with me there’s a lot of doubt, a lot of wondering, a lot of being unsure about pretty much everything. I feel like I jump into things before I’m ready but if I wait too long I usually just drop them. I don’t feel like there is a middle ground with me. Normally I find myself letting opportunities pass me by, but if I jump headfirst into something I feel overwhelmed and normally end up failing. I need a chance I think, I need one to actually do something worthwhile. No more customer service, no more technical support. I need to write. I just need one little lead and I’m grab it and run. Feel free to comment advice below if you have any ❤
Shadow dragon that was suppose to be part of Rena’s shard deal. He was suppose to be the one obsessed with protecting her. Also useless since the shards aren’t part of her story anymore.
Death angel, yes I know, this isn’t a race, this is why she doesn’t exist anymore.
White tiger neko dancer. Sweet girl, orphan, was taken in by a dance instructor/ninja, danced by day ninja by night. She was alot of fun, just couldn’t find a place for her, sadly.
Ninja neko, yes i know, common for me. She was a walkin type character I threw together. She didn’t have any backstory or anything so I got bored.
An attempt at making a new Asura without all the baggage, it didn’t work.
Vampire male character that I made for my friend. He was a badass, but he didn’t really have a purpose other than being good looking and kicking ass.
Asura’s son, somehow a phoenix, no I dont know. He’s also a green phoenix, no, I dont know, and this is why he’s dead.
Demigod daughter of Aries. She punches things, alot. She’s pretty too. But unfortunately there’s no place for her.
Living weapon girl, unfortunately will only work if someone wants to weild her, so that kinda killed itself.
Mute ice wolf character. Sad story, cute character, emotion heavy powers.
First attempt at rena, some weird race I dont remember. Ice mage originally, replaced with Rena.
Super wizard girl! Carried around a grimoire and every time she learned something new it would add itself, so she just got really really strong as time went on, didn’t really know how to balance her, realized it was too much, scrapped her.
Japanese priestess, way too busty, likes to smack people with her staff, no real purpose.
There’s probably more, but this is all I have.
This will be a bunch of random character I’ve had over the years that have “died” in one way or another. By died they could have died in a story, they could have died because I realized their character wouldn’t make it on gaia, maybe the character seemed useless, or maybe someone ruined it for me. So this will be the list of characters, what they were, who they were and how they died.
This was my first ever created character. I wanted a character that was an angel since I was so confused and innocent about life. That and for some reason my high school friends thought I was one. So I made this character. At this point she’s dead to me due to all the roleplays she was in. My friend and I did a lot of roleplaying with her and well, somehow or another she’s no longer what I wanted her to be. Not to mention she had a kid that’s a phoenix, cause apparently angel + dragon shifter thing = phoenix? I don’t even know.
This character didn’t really have a chance. I was trying to make a Rena without the Rikka side. I quickly found out that this didn’t work with me and felt empty, thus the character died off fairly quick.
Demon girl with bladed fans as her weapon that used fire as her element. I used her in one roleplay in which the other person decided they were going to “flood the world” and apparently my fans were op. Needless to say, that was dumb, so I didn’t bother.
This is a bit of a doozy. I made her as a blood angel. I know, this isn’t a race, it was made for a specific plot, for simplicity state thing of the Greek Titans, that was what she was suppose to be. Along the story she was apart of she was bitten by a vampire and had her wings torn off. I wasn’t really expecting this, nor was I expecting that she was shifted into a vampire at this point. Her entire character was based around being the race. I thought of rolling her back to retain her character but I just couldn’t seem to do it.
This was suppose to be a modified version of my eve. This was going to be my way of changing how her character worked to become more magicky and less necromancy, but it didn’t feel right, so no more Evelynn.
Fire Fey character. I wrote the profile, that was about as far as that went.
This was a fun character. 14 year old superhero girl.Her power was to be able to bring to life anything she drew. Hilarity ensued but the application was unfortunately useless for most rps.
Fallen angel in modern times, made a profile, went nowhere.
Regular human priestess, quiet but stern, made a profile, went nowhere.
Neko gunslinger character. Good in theory, horrible in gaia rps because apparently all guns have unlimited ammo
Fallen Angel demon slayer. I made her, I had fun with her, but then my old friends got obsessed with her, so I dropped her.
First male character, a dragon. I made him for Rena’s story, but unfortunately he didn’t find a place and was scrapped rather quickly.
Shadow piece of Rena back when rena’s soul was shattered into shards. Was suppose to be a smart ass demon that wanted to be rena’s lover. The shards aren’t part of her story anymore thus he doesn’t need to be there.
For years I’ve been roleplaying on various sites. I started back on the forums of the old beyblade website [sad I know], found the old roleplaying haven forums on roleplayhaven and stayed there for a while as well, made my journey over to neopets where I met furries for the first time, then eventually found my way over to go-gaiaonline, now known as gaiaonline.com. Throughout the years of roleplaying I’ve evolved as a roleplayer. I found ways to not copy characters I had seen, not use the meta in magic/abilities and soon enough create my own stories instead of constantly walking into random walkins. I’ve eveolved from a ** roleplayer to a literate roleplayer. Through all of my time on these sites, I’ve come to the conclusion that good roleplayers are dieing out.
Back on my early days of beyblade and roleplayhaven, people cared about story over their own character. They wanted to see what people could create, and they wanted to be part of it. People made flexible characters and tried to create their stories inside of the new world they were apart of. There was no “my character is better” fighting, because everyone was working towards the overall goal of the story.
Over the last two years I found it extremely hard to keep a story going, whether it’s mine or someone elses, but only when there are over 4 people in the forum. If it’s a small thread between me and my friends, its fine. In a larger forum with multiple people in continously turns into a shitshow of whose character is more OP. If they think you’re writing is better, you’re OP. You’r power is cooler than mine, OP. You know more than my character does, OP. please notice I never said they did any of these things, it’s more of this is how people perceive it. My main character in roleplaying is normally Rena. In most forums I will play her as water mage that can turn into a demon. Apparently water is op sometimes. My muse played a human samurai, no magic, no abilities, but he knew how katana’s worked, typed as such, nope he’s godmodding. My friend played as a character that was pretty much harmless, but since he was an anthro he’s also godmodding. I wish I could say it was one time, I wish I could say it was a string of bad luck, or even if it was my fault. I’ve made new characters, I’ve played just humans, I’ve made new stories that were so plain there was no way ANYONE could be op, and still, the dick size contest began and destroyed the roleplay.
So my sad conclusion is that the ways of roleplaying where everyone wanted to work towards a story is dead, people use roleplaying as another way to boost their ego or get more attention. This is also easy to see with how few people actually read. People don’t care about stories, they don’t want to read, they want explosions, nudity and violence. The age of roleplaying is dead.